Mixed feelings....

I'm having mixed feelings about life. Today is supposed to be day number one of Operation New Heidi and I overslept, couldn't find me keys, stepped in cat shit and was 18 minutes late to work. I haven't been late to work in over a year. I also still feel like crap.
I guess what I'm saying is maybe I am alittle codependent and I need a partner in this whole "New Heidi". I need a new life. I mean I love my life and all the things and people that are in it, but I just need a change. I only problem is, I don't know what that change is. Does anyone have any suggestions?
I am a creature of habbit, this I know. Everyone and their mom knows that I go to Crummy's every Tuesday and Wednesday. They all know that I bowl in Thursdays. That I wanna keep. I need some sort of normal in this whole Operation New Heidi. But I need something. Something is missing in my life and I'm so lost on what it is.